Hello, my name is Melissa and I am addicted to pain killers

No really I am. I saw my GI doc today and he really thinks all the pain I have is when my body is withdrawing off of the pain pills. He put me back on a drug called desipramine. It is actually classified as an antideppressent but can also cause the gut to relax. It works with the pain recepters in the brain and is non habit forming. I need to take that at night and decress the narcotic use. I've only been taking 3 a day so now I can only take 2 for a week then one then none. I think I can get myself off a little quicker but this week may not be to much fun. Today I took one at 1 and haven't taken any since so it may not be to bad after all.

And to end on a possitive note that has nothing to do with anything: I got a $30 pair of earrings for $0.85 today :)

Update

Melissa went to see the ob/gyn on Wednesday. She sent her for an ultrasound which did show that she still has the cyst on her ovary. She has had a better day than she has had in about a week. Hopefully she will hear something back from the doctor soon.

Mom's comments

Melissa asked that I post for her tonight. She is hurting quite a bit. We spent the morning at the hospital where the blood test came back looking fairly normal. The doctor decided it is not the abscess and so he is sending her to the GI doctor who she will see next week. She is also going to try to get in to see the ob/gyn doctor since they had found and lanced a cyst on her ovary last month. She is trying to cover all the bases. Please remember her in your prayers. She seems to do so well and then something else happens.

As Drew keeps saying it is all in God's time.

Maybe I should just move in...

Well I finally figured out why I was having pain in my upper belly. I am pretty sure it is all the milk I have been drinking. I haven't been drinking any lately and have been feeling much better in that regard.

However, Thursday or Friday I started having headaches and lower belly pain. I also started running a low grade fever every once in a while. Saturday it was pretty bad and I added back pain to the mix. Sunday was more of the same so I called the doc. I am meet him at the hospital at 8:30 tomorrow morning. He wanted to see me before they did a CT scan or anything but I am pretty sure it is the abscess. If it isn't that then something is going to have to be done because the only thing that is getting me by is pain meds...2 at a time. I am hopeing they can drain it tomorrow and just keep me one night or send me home the same day. It would be nice if he thought he could just give me antibiotics. Either way something is going to have to change because the last round of meds I was on did take care of the problem compleatly.

It is nice knowing I am going in tomorrow though. Mom came up and she mixed up 5 batches of persimmon bread while I made spigette for dinner. She also did pretty much all my dishes for me and my dad got all my trash out so I don't have to worry about gnats showing up if I have to stay at the hospital for a few days.

Did I mention that I have engagement pictures set up to be taken Sunday afternoon so I HAVE to feel better by then.

....and waiting

I went to see the doc today and he doesn't understand why I am still having pain where I am having pain, I may have to go see my GI doc for it. He said the drain he put in is still there and he thought it was healing up well but I have to go back in a month for him to check that drain again and if it hasn't fallen out on its own he will pull it out. I asked him if he thought there was a chance I could get my reconnection done by the end of the year. He said if insurance wasn't in the equation he would deffently have me wait longer and we are kind of taking a gamble if we go ahead and do the CT in mid December of all this happening again. He did talk to the the gals in the buisness office and they are going to see if they can get them to bill it as a continuance from this year so I wouldn't have to repay my deductables. It would be nice but it is a long shot.

Back to the waiting Game

I am starting to feel better these days although I learned that holding babies even if they are within your 10 pound weight limit isn't the best idea in the world. However, if I had it to do all over again I probably would have done the same thing:) I'm still having to take some pain medication here and there, mostly at night or if I have been out and about for the day. I am also taking a giant antibiotic twice a day so maybe this time we can get things cleared up without having to drain it 3 times.

I'm told that the doc thinks the CT contrast helped in getting the infection started back where they had drained the abcess before. I'll find out more when I see him on Monday but there probably will be no more of those until he is 110% sure it is healed compleatly.

This has definitely been a roller coaster for me. When I first talked to my doc in June we thought I would be done with my last surgery by the end of September. Then after the first one I had so many problems so we thought it would be October, then it was by Thanksgiving, now I am going to be lucky to have it done by Christmas. I honestly don't care if I have to be in the hospital over Christmas anymore, I just want it done before the new year so I don't have to pay anymore bills. I think the most frustrating part is I feel like my life is on hold. Most people can go back to their office jobs and be just fine after a few weeks. That is not so easy when you are in a classroom or waitressing. I really wish I had an at home job like stuffing envelopes or putting together something. I am very thankful that I have parents that are willing to help pay my bills now that I have run out of money. I am also thankful for a wonderful supportive fiance that doesn't care that I poop out my belly. Most of all I am thankful for a loving God. I have no idea why all this has happened and why I must wait but I do know that there is a plan, there is a reason, and I just have a wait and see what that is. It is in His hands and only He knows the correct timing for it all.

Going home

Melissa is going home today. She is still in some pain but I am sure she will rest better at home. She has to see the surgeon in ten days. Reconnect surgery has been postponed again until at least after Thanksgiving.